Stress Eating

Life happens.

Right at this moment my son, an adult, my baby non the-less, is in surgery.  After years of considerable concerns, pain and close calls, he is in very good hands.  Excellent doctors, hospital, surrounded by loved ones... And literally thousands praying.  Everything that could be done has been,  So WE now, Let Go and Let God.

I'm calm.  After months of battling personal dark thoughts, my mind is quiet.  My Faith gives me strength I didn't know I possessed.  The only evidence of underlining concerns is;  I've been stuffing my face.  Everything that is not frozen is gone.  I'm finishing off a box of Cheerios as I blog.  Milk containers...empty.  lol

Breathing deeply and often...it is what it is.  Its time to be compassionate with...myself.

Waiting.

Its taken me days to get back to this post.  My son is in lots of pain (reminds me "I am alive" he giggles) but doing very well. 

As soon as I received word that he had survived surgery and back in his room, I ran a bath.  Soaking a mist the scent of lavender, breathing deeply, allowing the Epsom Salt to assist in releasing all pent up stress held by my body, I gave 'Thanks" over and over.

I laugh over my food binging.  Food was my friend, my companion, during a stressful time.  No, I did not make myself wrong.  Nor did I feel guilty or ashamed.  Nor did my mind reason, justify or rationalize.  I just went back to ...healthy eating.  But I will admit, I am so glad I know where to get my HCG drops, if I need them"  lol

Its Aug. 29th,...My son continues to recover, while in New York City we had an 'earthquake' and days later a 'hurricane'.  Unprecedented.  Stress is definitely a part of life.  The 'earthquake' was an unexpected surprise. But for the hurricane Irene, I took preventive measures, assessed the damage, minimal and now... move forward.

My family and I have been blessed as I hope you have been.  ALL is Very Good!